Now here is the big thing. This time around in the very beginning of my pregnancy i desperately wanted to have a VBAC (vaginal birth after cesarean). I had to have a c section with Brant, it may have been able to be avoided had i educated myself more before his birth but I didn't and I'm ok with that. I educated myself this time around however and looked at all the VBAC statistics and research etc. Now the reason most doctors dont want to do them is because there is a 1% of uterine rupture and they basically have to have the OR prepped and ready to go during your whole labor so of course they dont want to be there the whole time. But I really wanted to do it so i talked to Dr Powers and he told me he doesn't do them and told me of his experience with uterine ruptures and why he doesn't do them which was understandable. Now i love Dr Powers and I respect him greatly which I why i chose him to be my OB but I still wasn't sure if I was going to VBAC which meant finding a new doctor or just go with the repeat c-section. So I prayed and prayed and prayed and didn't receive any solid answers, all I knew is that I didn't feel peace. Now I am a paranoid person and I was convinced that I would be in that 1% that would rupture because lets face it I dont have the best luck in the world when it comes to percentages haha (ie. 1% get hyperemesis, and 10% of that 1% have it the whole 9 months) So finally around 5 or 6 months pregnant I decided I didn't feel peace and I was just going to stay with Dr. Powers. So my prayer was this "Lord you know I desire to deliver normally without a c-section but you know what is best and safest for me and Greyson so let your will be done".
Well fast forward to 36 weeks pregnant and I begin contracting, sometimes for regular intervals but never close enough to go to the hospital, sometimes irregularly and with absolutely no dilation or effacement at all. I was really frustrated with the Lord and couldn't understand why i was contracting but not dilating because i really wanted to go into labor and just by some miracle be able to have a VBAC lol. So finally October 25th came which was the day of my scheduled c-section and I was extremely nervous because I didn't want to have one at all. I cried in the hospital a few times before being taken back and made Stephen pray continuously because I was so afraid of having the surgery again and the complications that could occur such as paralyzation from the spinal, scar tissue, hemorrhaging etc. (I'm paranoid I know). So Im sitting on the operating table shaking like crazy waiting for my spinal when I prayed Lord please help me calm down and I just felt so peaceful and stopped shaking long enough for them to give me my spinal. Now my nerves started again when the spinal didn't take right away and they had to give me more medicine. So I was now paranoid for the whole surgery that I would feel pain and I could feel everything they were doing just without pain and that really freaked me out. So Dr. Powers is doing the surgery and a few minutes in says "hmmm" which im sorry but that's not what you want to hear when your dr has just cut through your skin, abdomen and is about to cut your uterus lol. So the conversation went as follows:
me: what, whats the matter oh my God.
Dr Powers: Have you been contracting?
me: irregularly for 3 weeks why what is wrong?
Dr. Powers: well nothings wrong its just that your uterus is so thin i can see the baby right through it he has a whole head of hair.
Me: Am I ok? I mean is that ok>
Dr. Powers: Well it;'s ok bc youre having a c section
Me: So VBAC wouldn't have been a good choice?
Dr. Powers: Umm no you would have ruptured, this is why I dont do VBACS
So the Lord knew what kind of shape my uterus was in and that is why he didn't allow me to go into labor. I didn't understand at the time but now I do and I am so thankful that I chose not to VBAC. Now dont get me wrong I think VBAC Is an awesome thing and I think the women who go through it have tremendous courage. However it was not the right choice for me and I never thought i would ever say I was glad that I had a c section but I truly am. I am thankful that we have doctors who can perform that surgery because who knows what could have happend. I could have VBAC'd and been fine, or I could not have been. I could have lost my ability to have more children, I could have died or Greyson could have. My uterus was in that 1% that would have ruptured and I am thankful that the Lord protected me from that. I am thankful for my doctor, my birth experience and my precious little reward Greyson Phillip Grant Lamoureux.
